So things are pretty crappy right now
Care is getting worse, at some point I’ll write about it properly, but I can’t right now because it just fills me with fear and anxiety. We have made steps to sort things out, but I’m at a point I have to just not think about it. If I do I would probably cry and just not stop, I’m overwhelmed with so many feelings and I can feel them all simmering away, ready to create the perfect storm.
For me the best way to get things out is to write it out, physically get all those feelings out of my head and on to paper, then I can see it and make sense of it. Separate the more irrational, anxious thoughts from all my other thoughts and feelings, so that I don’t combust.
But none of it will make sense, so it will take me sometime.
Hopefully when I get it all written out in a understandable form, there will be a happy